Realest, I'd also add that I generally see struggle when growth is there too, or follows. My husband and I talk about making the next right choice all the time- it's particularly helpful right now in the ex of my step son who is struggling with depression and not making good life choices - and trusting that the results are out of our control but will work out as they are supposed to. This applies to my spirituality- some mornings when don't feel particularly "into" my Richard Rohr meditation, for example, I read it through anyway and still find one little thing I can take from it.
Not drinking, and doing what my program has taught me - basically that keeps me going when I feel disconnected to anything. Glad you are here.