Day 42 update
Things are going well. I'm still trucking along. My first full week on the job and loving it so far. Just anxiously waiting to get paid as I have a lot of catching up to do on bills. I haven't felt this good in a very long time. I actually set goals for myself each week, and the most surprising thing is I cut back on the negative thinking a ton. Weighed on me like a ton of bricks with me just beating myself up everyday.
I finally met up with my sponsor to go to a meeting on Monday night. Felt good to get out as I just took a step back from everyone and everything except my household to clear my head and put my nearly flushed down the toilet life back together. I can say that in disguise going through all that was a blessing even though it was miserable and I almost took my own life cause of the demoralization.
I just want to focus on today...then the next day etc and do what is right. I've been told I'm a pretty good dude sober lol so why not stay on that train.
Hope everyone had a great start to the new year.