Originally Posted by roseygurl

I always felt dirty when drinking, going into work the next day, no matter how long I showered I still felt dirty.

Pissing the bed everynight, drinking party cups full of whiskey blacking out and pissing the bed.

Waking up in a stupor, unable to find my way out of the bedroom to go to the bathroom, falling against the wall breaking my collar bone, and not getting medical attention because I was drunk. Going to work the next day passing out meds one handed because of the excrutiating pain I was in from my fall.

Letting coworkers believe that my injury was from my ex husband, because I didn't want anyone to know that I did it myself drunk.

drinking mouthwash to get rid of the shakes before work, or before my court order dwi class.

throwing up in the parking lot at work, all over the bathrooms

shaking so bad I had difficulty giving injections, giving meds, feeding people, handing my money to the store clerk to buy more alcohol

pretending that what people thought and said about me didn't bother me

the look of pain on my new "normal" boyfriend's face when he realized I had a drinking problem.