We are worried--you body systems are beginning to shut down and be destroyed by the alcohol sweeti--and when the liver failure gets worse, your mental capacity will get really distorted and confused, which will make it very hard for you to make good decisions for yourself.
You know this as well as we do, but because you are in the situation and allowing impulse to rule, it is hard to keep in focus.
Your car, your house will mean nothing if you spiral down into drinking as so many have.
Look up--look ahead--and please take some drastic action before it is too late.
You have friends here, and a real friend tells the truth, not just what you want to hear.