JimmyJlover:
I never wanted to be an alcoholic - who does? It was the best thing that ever happened to me.
I never wanted to go to AA, that was pitiful. It was the best thing that ever happened to me.
Believing in a woogie boogie spiritual HP... please... It was the best thing that ever happened to me.
What part of the country do you live in? I travel for work often and have a solid network of AA people around the country - maybe I might know somebody where you are located. I live in Charleston, SC and I love the recovery here - it's amazing and I have a ton of fun. DM me if you like.
Try and get to a meeting - you might just find the sense of ease and comfort you only got from a couple drinks....