No, SereniityRiver. You are a good and valuable person. Try not to engage in the fighting.
Can you call your pastor? Or call a Suicide Hotline or get to a crisis center?
http://www.edinburghcrisiscentre.org.uk/wordpress/ http://www.penumbra.org.uk/service-l...crisis-centre/ https://www.samaritans.org/branches/...h-and-lothians