Hi August,
Thanks for taking the time and the input, today is day 5.
I was doing plenty of reading last time but nothing since I stopped and just started with my BB again, have the 12 & 12 and some other literature but will also take a look at what you mention soon, I’m trying to switch my brain back to it as it feels like I put the shutters up somewhat but with persistence an open mind / willingness and doing as suggested will start to feel I am getting back on track. I know the good side is there and now it’s trying to push through.
That’s the huge leap for me the normal side is very much if I’m honest quite hate filled and bigoted I need to really push that away which is extremely difficult but I know it is possible and I really do like the other side much more once I get there.
I wasn’t a bad person as a kid but found the mask I used for many years as a form of protection- full of fear - without doubt but could never show it until things got too much.
Trying to concentrate on something my sponsor told me (who is back this weekend)
STOP COMPARING
STOP BEING JUDGMENTAL
STOP MIND READING
STOP OVER THINKING
Hope you have a good day to August and thanks again.