No need to explain the misery. I lived there for the last ten years of my drinking career.
I know it all to well.
I hope you can end the madness for both yourself and your family.
If you're desperate enough to get sober, are you ready to go to any length necessary? Because that's what it took me.
I was desperate, too. I couldn't drink and I couldn't not drink. What a mess I turned my life into.
But I sought help and it's been ten years since this drunk has had any alcohol.
You can do it too. Be willing.
Thanks for your post it helped me stay sober today.