Hello! It sounds like you could use some support. Like Dee said, lots of SR helps -- I was posting and reading all day when I was trying to sober up. I also needed to be around sober people. I don't know where you live or what's available, but I went to AA. It was amazing to meet rooms and rooms of people in real life who I could talk to about alcoholism.
Is there AA or any group support option where you are?