Congrats on 50 days! I relapsed several times at first. In order for me to achieve long term (hopefully permanent) sobriety, I had to work on changing myself. Each short sobriety phase was easy at first because I was motivated by remembering my last drunk episode. But once that wore off, I had nothing to fall back on. I hadn’t changed myself, my beliefs, my habits and behaviors. I started going to individual therapy, which i did for a year, and still go occasionally. I do meditation, yoga and exercise religiously. I follow 12 steps. I am a more spiritual person.
Coming to SR daily, journaling and practicing gratitude have been so helpful for me as well.
Stay strong and develop a daily practice for working on yourself and your sobriety. You can do it!