On day 4 today I went out to the supermarket. I was looking and wishing I could have a few wines????? Been through hell last few days and now I actually want to do it again!!!! Don’t know if I can do this it’s strong and feel sad that I can’t have a few like others can!!! Even though it’s doused carnage in my life and pain regrets humiliation shame guilt anxiety depression sucidal thoughts!! Rehab psych ward etc. Yet I think I’d like to have a few insanity indeed go away av please please leave me alone