Do you really want to stop drinking? Or are you looking for an excuse to drink and for us to validate that choice?
If you're going to stop, make the damned commitment and do it. Whatever negative consequences you've experienced from drinking will merely get worse every time you "just have one sip" and it leads to relapse.
Which if you're honest with yourself, it would. You are not a "normal" drinker. Normal drinkers don't hang out on websites with names like Sober Recovery. You have a problem. Admit it and be done with it.