You should not have had to endure what you did as a child. I am so sorry, and I am sending lots of love and support to you as you get closer to your daughter’s birth. You say you feel so isolated. Is there anyone around you to support you and her? I hope there is but whatever the scenario you clearly have a strength to have gotten through what you did and gotten away from booze. So I know you can face it, whatever it is. Hugs to you and baby girl.