Lostinjersey1, I can relate and understand how hard it is to let go. I never got closure and it is not easy. Like you, I have good and bad days. I dont know if its the holidays or what but have been struggling a bit lately. I know time will heal , I am strong and my life will be much better knowing he couldn’t be a husband to me as he already had a wife named alcohol. Wishing you the best.