People don't give a rats if you drink or not ... they really don't.
If you can stay sober for a while you'll get to realise for yourself .... it won't just be some random stranger telling you this on the internet.
Give it a go !
and a word of advice .... do not underestimate this thing, it can chew you up and spit you out quicker than you can say "WTF?" .... the slow descent downhill can turn into a fall off a cliff with frightening speed and you never see it coming or know when it will happen.
Take action sooner rather than later.