I understand the pain of a breakup in which the whole thing was just jerked out from under me with no explanation, really. And that man wasn't an alcoholic. So the dynamic with someone who is an alcoholic is even more baffling and painful, I'm sure!!
I hope you know that his actions as an active alcoholic are *not* a reflection on you as a person. It doesn't mean that you aren't worth the effort, it doesn't mean that you aren't loveable, it doesn't mean that you aren't beautiful.
You are worth the effort!
You are loveable!
You are beautiful!
Please take good care of you!! I hope today has dawned just a bit brighter!