Hey Penguin,
Welcome! It's great that you are at a place that you realise that you have a problem...some people never get there, so well done, it's an excellent start!
Which book did you buy? If you don't feel up to meetings for now (best gift I ever gave myself) can I recommend you buy the big book of alcoholics anonymous...it is packed full of amazing insights and stories and lessons you can get it on amazon or online.
Great to have you here!
Cathy31
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