Lone,
There a tons of AA folks here that can hopefully help you w positive information.
Unfortunately, my experience w AA was in your direction, but I didn't relapse.
I am not going to AA bash. Someday AA might be my saving grace.
I think your age helps you recover from relapse easier. You haven't kindled enough to have a strong Physical and mental motive to quit.
At least you want to quit. That alone is the 90% solution. Understanding the nature of addiction and being ready to suffer like hell helped me get this far.
I had horrid anxiety, some agoraphobia/paranoia when I quit. Basically, I was going insane. That is what booze does to us drunks. Eventually it fries our brains and we go wacky.
But, I had moments of serenity that made me believe i would get well. Time healed me. But, it took this long.
I pray w gratitude for another sober day and for strength every night.
SR taught me everything I needed to stay this sober.
I read and post almost daily.
Hope this helps you.
Thanks.