Originally Posted by
peacefulintent 
Hey Fearless, Just came across this post of yours. The meltdown is over at this point (at least that one) and you made it through that hard time. You are strong and will continue to be strong for your son. Each day, each moment, will go by. Continue to help him as best you can. Hopefully, as he grows older he will learn strategies to help him to deal.
So much easier said than done, but try and get to a place where you can distance yourself from the meltdown and not get sucked in to the drama of it all. At some point it will pass. You are a good, strong, reasonable mother. He will make it through the trials he has.
Be good to yourself. Take big, deep breaths and repeat in your head that "This too shall pass. In time, all will be well."
You are in my thoughts.
So true. Learning to distance myself emotionally to protect myself while at same time being there emotionally for him is difficult. It’s a balance. I sometimes need to just leave and go for a walk. My husband has been great about this. My therapist reminds me that I cannot allow my sense of peace and wellbeing to be dependent on anything or anyone else, even my son. I know he’s right and the more I train my brain this way, the more calm and objective and proactive I can be in any situation. I know it’s important for my son to see me handle things calmly which requires me staying sober
. Thank you.