Hi Penguinloves,
Welcome here! Many others will be along...
Some will no doubt recommend AA, which is much less frightening than it may seem from your position. I don't know what book you have ordered, but if it works, be sure to share it here.
Another place you may want to look for help:
www.SMARTRecovery.org
Sober Recovery has been a lifesaver for me.
Hugs,
