Stick around
Thanks for posting and sharing your story. Many of us are/were closet drinkers. It has been my experience; however, that eventually, as my disease progressed, it became obvious to everyone, but me, that I was drinking too much.
I'm glad you ordered a book. We also need each other to stay sober. I can't, we can.
Good luck on your beginning journey to sobriety. My prayers are with you.