Day 4
Laid back day. Ran some errands. I'm still debating about what to do with either going back to working AA or not.
Sometimes I feel like it can be like my sponsor is punishing me. The reason why is no so much the work. It is the fact that it's the first things that will come out of his mouth. 90 and 90 again, reach out to new comer and exchange numbers in every meeting if there are any, re-do my steps again. I'm not sure how others in AA feel about having to re-do your step work each time relapse happens, but I really don't know how to feel about much these days either so feedback is much appreciated.
Believe me I want to be sober and stay that way. My life is beyond unmanageable because of alcohol. I know I'm not the only one that wishes for a delete button on actions we have done in our lives to get to the point of being "rock bottom".
Still sober though regardless.