Ok my friends... I just need a word or two. I have been okay for a while now but now today. I feel really lonely. I have no family where I live except my son who is 15 and is busy with friends. He has been acting up with school by not getting his work in on time. I lost it on him for lying to me about it. I had a rage so strong i screamed and fell on the ground i slapped him. .. I could be in huge trouble for that. In Canada it is illegal. why did I do this? Is this part of my broken heart? I hate L. for hurting me so badly. He is still texting ...i do not reply. I am keeping the texts as I may go to the RCMP. I did inquire and they said an officer would talk to him. i am alone tonight it is dark and raining...i want to be happy. I am trying to like myself today but I can't. tell me to smarten up... I am ridiculous.