I also want to thank who ever it was how bumped this yesterday. I is amazing. I went through both threads and cut and pasted the ones in there that most resonate with me (dozens btw). I put a copy on my phone so that if am in a bad place I can open it up and read them to inspire me to try to resist urges.
I also have felt hungry for the first time in months. I mean starving. I've hardly been eating for a long time due to wanting to throw up or drinking taking its place. Proper food!! It feels good.