Old 11-24-2018, 05:27 PM
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ScaryTime
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Originally Posted by embraced2000 View Post
for me, it meant that i lived totallly revolving around his chaos, abuse, problems. it was like walking on eggshells all the time.....everything was about him and his reactions to any incident.

the more i tried to be a good mate, the worse everything became. i became invisible, with him becoming the bright, twisted shining light of the universe.....a very sick universe. which of course, as long as i was willing, dragged me right along on his coattails.
wow, can I ever relate to that statement “I became invisible”. That is exactly how I feel most of the time even though he is not drinking. He just let me have it tonight about what a terrible person I am and how much he hates me. Now he has to work on himself and take care of himself. That just would be a laugh if it wasn’t so sad, he has been taking care of himself our entire marriage. :-(
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