Originally Posted by
Bonniefloyd 
Question: at what point do you have the confidence to say “I’ve got this”? Because I really don’t ever want to drink again, but I’m still not trusting myself. Right now I think I’m going to do this; I’m going to be sober forever. But of course drinking turned me into such a sneaky liar that my own family had no idea how bad it was. How do I know I’m not pulling one over on myself?
Mornin' Bonnie. This is a tricky one. I've thought that I had it under control many, many times, only to find out that I didn't. I can look back over my posts over the years, where I was absolutely sure that I had it figured out this time. I was so optimistic that I had finally turned my life around. I got complacent. I wasn't really doing anything to ensure my long term sobriety. I was just talking about it. I think we just have to keep at this one day at a time, and really be aware that the beast is always lurking.