I feel anxious.
So been going no contact with my ex despite initial attempts to contact and meet up. He has moved to a town 10 miles away from me and said he would be attending AA meetings in my town. So I have a very anxious feeling at the moment.
Because I'm not in contact I don't know if he is near me, I could be walking dog or out for a walk and I could run into him or pass him. I know it sounds strange but my anxiety levels are majorly increased since I heard he's back.
I think it was easier when I knew he was in another country. Now knowing he's around, still struggling to stay NC and all my Codependency traits being triggered I'm struggling.