Originally Posted by
Meadow123 
He apologized and when I said that I was struggling with it he said angrily that i should not hold him hostage to the words he did not mean.
I'm so glad you are reaching out to a therapist Meadow, that can take courage, we always think we can just "ride it out" - we will be fineeeeeee, but there are things that need other perspectives and the tools the therapist can provide.
The fact that he would react angrily to your genuine concerns is a gigantic indicator of where he is at.
I hope you are doing things to look after yourself. Eating well, getting plenty of sleep and being kind to yourself.