My off topic topic
I went to the clinic today. Began the medical termination process. Hard to articulate how I feel.
Recently its just all been a lot. Having to move, becoming increasingly dissatisfied at work (you would not believe how my boss speaks to me, its unreal) giving up the dog for the new place...and this unexpected pregnancy.
I still havent felt like drinking which blows my mind.
16 months ago this would have been a chaotic catastrophe that I would have binged over non stop, praying to just die already for being pissed upon waking up. Life is good today for all intents.
I'm almost in shock. I cant even entirely believe it isnt even on my mind. Like who is this girl? I dont know...this week has not been easy but I did it and I did it pretty well. As well as can be expected. Almost waiting for the other shoe to drop. Not healthy? Normal? I dont know.
I thank you for listening.
Jules