Originally Posted by
hopeful4 
You are going through a grieving process and it takes time. Give yourself a break, be good to yourself, and know that if you stay no contact, this will eventually pass.
Thank you so much. I am def grieving and it sucks so bad. I just want to be over it already, but I know I can't. I have to go through it. I'm def staying no contact. I have no choice in the matter anyway as far as he himself is concerned. He has no phone and he hasn't contacted me at all. I have cut phone calls with his family though, except for an 'I love you' text that I sent his mom. She knows I need time right now b/c we talked about it and so I know I can say that and she knows I'm not trying to start a dialogue.