Hi bringmeback, I remember your earlier posts and I'm rooting for you. It's not always easy doing this in your 20s, although I've had to permanently eliminate that as an excuse. I agree with others who have said disappointing people in the program should not be your main concern. If you find that AA is not thoroughly meshing.. there are other recovery methods you could consider adding. I believe we can and probably should utilize more than one if necessary. Something as simple as learning to recognize your addictive thought patterns and separate yourself/observe these thoughts before taking action can really help when it comes down to it.
I'm sorry you drank but please just get back on the horse and don't waste too much time feeling guilty/ashamed. Use it as a learning experience.