Welcome back!
I personally don't name my AV, it does deserve that kind of respect to have an actual name- That is my view. anyways.
Keeping the "alcohol" in the name is a good enough reminder for myself, what that crap does to me.
You can get through this. Life happens, number 1 priority is to not to buy it, so you won't drink it.
Change your driving route even if you go out of your way, it is better than succumbing to the AV.