Me too! The cycle will repeat itself over and over unless it is completely broken.
I had to make a long term plan which has evolved over time. I had to completely change my beliefs, thoughts, behaviors and habits. I see recovery as a life long journey now.
These are some things that have helped me: checking in here daily (even if I don’t post, I read), express gratitude every day (I love the gratitude forum on this site), individual therapy (weekly in the beginning, now occasionally), lots of exercise and especially running, yoga and meditation classes, self compassion, positive self talk, healthy eating habits, journaling my feelings.
Lots of support here.