Originally Posted by fightingfair

Reading that actually made me feel sick to my stomach because I know so well the effect of it. Maybe I should add that to the list as well as the feeling of having been used as a sex object while he contemplated the perfect timing of "when to break it off." That, if anything, should've killed my love for him completely.

I also wanted to say that I've been reading a lot about people leaving their partners after rehab. I think my other fear is that even if he went, maybe I wouldn't like sober him. He definitely didn't appreciate sober me. What a waste of time and energy I would've felt waiting for him. When he broke up with me, I briefly asked to try a little longer. "Why?" he said, still calm. "It will just get worse."

Probably truest thing he ever said.