I'm sorry to hear that you've been left with some damage Thrillhou.
While my drinking didn't directly impact my health so much, a bad withdrawal left me with a lot of permanent issues.
As a drinker I might have given up on life completely - but now I'm sober I kinda feel a a drive to make the most of every day because I know how much I used to take things like just waking up for granted.
Life is good
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