Thank you, everyone, for reading. It's relieving knowing that there are people out there who knows exactly what I'm going through.
Yes, they probably robbed me while I passed out.
In the previous comments, someone said I felt disgusted with myself, and I think that's the perfect description for me.
I'm taking so many risks like there is no possible scenario if I continue this that can turn good. I'll end up dead because I am not an aggressive person or I don't really drive drunk (or at all), so I'll end up dead if this does not stop.