Hope, I'm so sorry. I agree with Bim - this can end now.
Sometimes we need further proof that we can't touch a drop of the poison. I had to have bad things happen a few times in order to get more determined. In the end, I was playing with my life - putting myself in danger every time I took a risk. You sound disgusted, & ready to get free for good - and we know you can. I'm so glad you posted about what happened.
