Pinnacle you can do this.
I am doing this over again. I have been on this cycle quite a bit. One time I had 3 years, then 6 months and recently 5 months and as of today, 2 days. Yes I am pissed at myself.
I am stubborn cause I was told I had an ultimatum or this would happen. I know better not to do it for someone else. I resented him cause he continued his actions. This is why I am 2 days sober. I am picking myself back up. Went to 2 meetings cause I want a different outcome. I am ready to face the fact that I can not handle drinking like a normal person.
Just keep coming here, post if you need, and reach out to people who will support you.