Hi Dena, It is great that you are reaching out to this forum! There’s a lot of support here. I do not know what it’s like to be a single mom (though sometimes Dad is less involved than I would like. Lol) but I am a special needs parent and do relate to the isolation and loneliness, stress and anxiety and the urge to want to escape it all and drink it all away. For me it has taken a complete change of mentality and lifestyle to achieve complete sobriety. I have done therapy, yoga, meditation, checking in regularly here, overall healthy eating and new exercise habits, change of friendships. It was difficult in the beginning but I am so much happier now being sober. I’m sure you will find the same!