Welcome to SR Dena. As a single mum too I very much relate to where you are now. Stuffing wine and snacks down my neck to obliterate everything. Oh yes I did that with bells on - of course for me until it started to become very dangerous and scary.
I can happily tell you that life on the other side is utterly wonderful. Okay yes life is still life but being a reliable and present mum to my girls is such a gift. You can do it too! I look forward to seeing more of you around and please stay close and post as much as you need to.
Take care xxx