My thoughts on reading your post:
Kudos on posting!! Stepping up and reaching out in new ways are wonderful things.
Good things happen as we take new actions.
Putting aside the right or wrong of any topic was a huge milestone for me in early recovery. When thinking in terms of simply, "Is this healthy for me?" my path started taking a whole new direction.
So, I'll put this question back to you for consideration. Was this healthy for you?
One day at a time. Great things happen every day. Being able to see and celebrate the good creates more awareness of this. This isn't to shy away from seeing illness or anger, simply to help direct our thoughts and healing in healthy ways.