Hi Orderfororder
If you feel overwhelmed reduce things down to basics.
I will not drink - the tools I will use will including posting here regularly, posting before I start drinking.
I will also use...whatever else you can think of. OforO
Investigate other ways to deal with cravings, with fear, with anxiety, with boredom or whatever else you see as a trigger.
Some folks use AA or some other recovery methods, others read books, listen to TED talks, get busy with activities.
None of that is a particularly onerous workload IMO.
Your AV might try and scare you by suggesting it is, but I reckon it's not.
I worked pretty hard to try and stay drunk all the time.
if sober you is not worth the effort, who is?
D