Great stuff Buck. I'm chopping the wood and carrying the water over here as well. Some days are better than others, there are fleeting moments, at times almost transcendent, where a peace and a calmness floods me that I can never recall having experienced before. My spirit and soul and psyche are so grateful that I finally, like you, have given them the gift of sobriety.
Then, of course, my neck hurts, the bills arrive, my wife is unreasonable, an idiot is on line with me at the grocery store, and life drums on and on. But even then, in the moments of nerves and indecision and self-doubt and even when the old trusty demon of avoidance/procrastination stops by - I know those moments of peace are still going to come. Things will change.
Choppin and carryin, good to see friends like you doing the same along the way. Thank you for the post.