I am in a similar state Dandelion. I am completely isolated. Besides ordering a coffee or a few words to the cashier at the grocery store, I have no interactions with anybody. I speak to my father once a week on the phone and that is the only contact I have with anyone I know. I am 10 days sober and wonder to myself every day what exactly is the point of being sober. I already lost everything and at age 42, there is no 2nd chance really. I am essentially unemployable given the red flags I raise.
The thing that keeps me going, however, is that I know that I am far from being the only person to ever to face such circumstances. I may not see it yet, but I do believe there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Need to go around the bend first.
Don't give up yet!