Thank you so much pathway for taking the time to give such a heartfelt answer to so many of my comments. That truly meant a lot to me. I know you feel my pain. I imagine there are a lot of us out there that feel this way. I like your idea of mindfulness. I do practice that. I always try to think of the blessings I do have. Anxiety is awful but I do have many blessings and that is what I try to focus on. If people think I am quirky well I guess I just have to accept that. Everyone has some issue right? Thank you so much again for your kind an insightful comments. I really felt validated and for that I am thankful to you.