Originally Posted by
charliesworld 
...This last one last week was just a day but still left me feeling terrible, guilt stricken and questioning my place in the world yet again. I feel like a failure and ending it all is something I think about frequently (although because I have family would never act on).
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This is EXACTLY how I felt. I do not feel that way anymore. Talk about positive, those feelings are gone. I am so much happier, and it was the alcohol. I do not drink anymore and while I did enjoy it, it was causing me problems. Shame, guilt, suicidal thoughts. I still watch football with my friends, but I don’t drink beer anymore. No one drinks like me anyway. I watched everyone last night. Two beers then done. Not me, I would just keeping going till passing out.