Many of us in recovery use to associate drinking
and night life together. That was when we'd be
off work and ready to unwind, relax and party.
At least that was when I enjoyed drinking the
most. There was something magical or mystical,
mysterious, romantic about drinking and the
night lights, air, clubs, music and people.
Of course, now that ive had yrs of recovery
under my belt, I since then have opened my
eyes wider. They are not glossed over. Im not
wearing dark glasses and not in a fog for sure any
longer.
I had a lot of learning to do to understand my
addiction to alcohol and its affects on my mind,
body and soul over the yrs and to come to an
acceptance that my addiction kept me sick for
a good while.
With many one days sober now, I no longer
go out at night unless it's a family emergency.
The night life doesn't call me like it once did
back when I was younger. Today, I love my
serenity, peace of mind, safety, security, sober
life and most of all, my own bed.
Today, there is nothing out there in the
night life and alcohol that would make me
happier, healthier and honest like I am today.
There is no place in my sober mind to think about,
romanticize, fantasize about that kind of life I use
to live when under the influence of a controlling
substance. There's no place like a convenience store,
parking lot, club, anyplace where alcohol is easily
assessable for me to go buy.
My Serenity Prayer I learned in early recovery
has been a life safer when anxiety, anxiousness,
fear, a moment of weakness would come over me
and needed a quick fix until it passed.
Replacing the night life with something healthier
in my life has been a blessing for sure.
