Glad you shared. I can relate to feeling so raw after 4 and 5- I clearly remember falling apart completely on the phone with my sponsor then in the middle of the night. My boyfriend, now husband, woke up because of my overwhelming sobbing.
You are in the right path and for me, being gentle with myself in terms of making progress, not hurriedness to get on with 6 and beyond, was important- and OK.
Keep going, friend.