Thanks, I am going to hang in there. The really annoying thing is I wasn’t having cravings and the AV had gone pretty much (after about three weeks). I was healthy and happy.
Oh ok I’m going to vent
It’s just such a ******* **** up. I wish I could rip my brain out of my head and stamp on it, with various other internal organs. I don’t want to be this person, I don’t want my life to be like this. I’m not sure it’s possible for me not to drink as I’ve never spent any of my adult life sober. What a way to live, to bring up kids, to be a human. Aghhhhhh fuckety **** **** **** ****
I can’t fast forward this process I know, but I’m just so cross and disappointed I feel like weeping.
At least I’m being a good ‘cautionary tale’!!! Maybe that’s my role in life.
I’m in bed today, it’s my safest of safe spaces and unfortunately I don’t trust myself to go anywhere and not drink. That’s so pathetic