Originally Posted by Ben123

Basically I’m a compete ****. That will be edited but I know no other word that captures my behaviour.

I’ve blacked out every day. Different to before, I can’t remember anything. Scary, I know one night at least I said unforgivable things to my SO. Because she told me the next day, I had to agree as I couldn’t remember a thing. I’m not sure I can do this, maybe I’m just destined to an early and miserable grave. But I’ve got to keep trying. I’m exhausted and depressed and (I won’t do this so don’t worry!) feel like suicide would be the best move for all concerned. I’m too stubborn for that.

Poor old me!!!!!!!!!